"know what is important"

i was texting with my highschool mommy ets last night as i told her about my seventeen magazine issue and also the manila bulletin article. i todl here that i was working for EON for this short event i helped them with (oh come on, minsan lang ako mabayaran sa isang event)... then she told me "dont lose perspective to what is important" at that moment there. i felt like i was in highschool again. or i wnated to go back to highschool and at least forget all the complications of life college ha brought me. for one as i have send, college ate me up whole. i forgot my love for photography, my love for classical music to be played by me on the piano. i forgot how it was to be a kid for i wanted to be an adult. did i realyl miss out on something? did i miss out on a stage in life that i should have gone through as well?

looking back at my freshmen days in college, it was as if i was in a long hard battle. going to the chapel everyday, asking the lord to keep me in ateneo. to help me in any problem i have to take. and now that i am in my senior year, i think i've lost track of what is important. i dont know why. i dont know if i chose the right electives. i dnt know if im still worth something as a person. i dont know if i have actually know my path now. now that i get job offers for events, i see my self in events than in international politics. i've lost my passion for reading my lectures. redoing my notes. being OC. staying in the lib for the whole afternoon.

how can you let go if the whole world is saying not to let go?
sigh.
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FOR ESCUDO: "pagkatapos ng sundy ay mandy...ang log deputy ay si jammy...magaling magmasahe si gutchi...si miko ang kanyang deputy...ang sto.niño ay si frankie...ang real name ni jen ay january...ang award ni jovitt ay 'scooby'...best friend ni tiff si
sir joey...ang course ni yoronjo ay ECE...ang kinareer ni anya ay si growee...si enzo ang head ng contingency...si jean ay mahilig pumarty...si nicko ay may red ferrari...at dinala niya si ann sa UP infirmary...sina marc, raqs at teej ay tnt...si sasa ay nag-one year anniversary...si mic ay may pilit na smiley...at si anj ang aming mommy...and this song is for our dear escudi..." (sung to the tune of "mandy" by barry manilow)
p.s. ang taga-take ng pictures ay si randy...


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i wish i could have kept orsem/orcom
memories in an hourglass.. so i could
turn it upside down to make things
last, or fill it up with sand to make
time still..... forever in my heart
escuds! thank you!
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