the tyranny of choices

it is amazing that i only got the inspiration to once again open my laptop and type away on my virtual space. it has been a hell week for me. an emotional rollercoaster. the world seemed to fashion me with much disgrace as compared to the productiveness i had the other week. i wish the world would wear more smiles this week. to at least make me realize the grandeur of my life choice.

i went to gesu mass today. i need not reiterate my love of going back to this said proverbial hill. My sactuary. a nice way to cap my lonesome week of a disheartened soul. sad. but it is a great way to ignite the new week ahead.

i quote fr. dacanay's homily:

"making decisions is renouncing other choices.... satisfaction with choices and decisions increase our expectations and proportionally increase disappointment."

true. facing consequences of choices, accepting the faults and flaws of our choices, and embrasing the result of your choices. again, choices, chances and changes.

I am contented with what i have right now. things are going great, business is encouraging, management committee meetings are almost always productive, and the entry of the administrative team of tcb-banawe! Everything's going perfectly as i wanted. though my dreams of representing the philippines someday usually peeps out in between cappuccinos and lattes, i still find my job worth keeping for i sense that i am still needed and my work is not yet done at the beanery.

But that does make me too complacent?

i stopped short this week, parked my work worries and life hassles for awhile and paused, aghast... asked myself..."did i dream too little to be contented with what i already have?"

then i wander and wondered. realizing that i got what i've prayed for.

then i smile coz i knew i made the right choice. And this is just a consequence of my decisions.

then maybe this week wont be as bad.