love chance and choices

so it has been sometime since i typed sense here. forgive me (as if i had fans of this blog, but some how i sense someone is stalking me.. *shrug*). i had my laptop (due to the insistance of my pop) fixed. given that it has a damaged keyboard and contact point, it did need some fix up (the last time it was checked was after orsem work. imagine how long that was!) . on the day i got my laptop back, pldt and dsl line was down. greatness indeed! so i had dial up for a time (11 days!!!)... and cannot stay up all night coz it was too limited. i hate working on such a short time frame anyway. so here i am now. ready to spill my guts (or maybe not).

scandalizng sister and i had our fabulous date last wednesday night. it was a night of spilling out of who we like and who we love. yes we did miss our dearest barbie in these sudden adventures. Especially that most of our misadventures were in makati. it was a crazy day of actualyl checkin out on wedding invitations, color motiffs, shower parties, etc etc... yes we are in love with having a wedding, but marriage is a different story. we had our quick dinner at cafe bretton.. surely a night of "i dont know.. maybe... " "you like him noh? aminin mo na" "i dont know whatelse i can do in this life. i hate my work" "this is so frustrating.... is this it" .. and of course inbetween those chit chats were people watching (blind dates, cute yuppies passing by). of course we again shared dreams that are now within our reach. it was like being back at the ss lobby-- though the vendo machine more expensive. (but deary, be that carrie huh! i know you can. you deserve it more than ever!)

my life? well. i can never be more satisfied perhaps. why the title of this post? well.. i decided some time ago that love is a choice.. well.. as much as i see that love is a choice, there is still a huge portion that says that love needs chances to make choices. so i'm still counting on that chance for me to make a choice. LOVE SHOULD GIVE ME A CHANCE TO MAKE A CHOICE ...then again i' m not rushing into things. if its meant to be, it's worth taking our time. im open to all possibilities.

so the week has again come and gone. the world again has grown old and i am still here waiting.

waiting for what?

for life to begin.

maybe this isnt "it" yet. a small voice inside me told me that... there is a world to conquer and you havent conquered everything yet.