exactly.

Absolutely. It was so much a part of my life for a decade. You can't help but feel a kind of void. I mean, that was the greatest job I ever had and maybe ever will have. The hours were great, the people were great, the work was always top-notch - you can't really beat that. But you know, you can't stay in that comfort zone forever. You've got to move it and switch it up and see what happens.- jennifer anniston on life after friends

that is how i actualy feel about college. it is so much part of my life.. though not a decade (thank god) but it has been the greatest time of my life. The people i met, the work i had was always "top-notch".. then again we cant stay there forever. probably by now i will hold the ateneo in my heart and in my eyes. as my sister said, when you go back afte graduation, you may not feel that you belong but you know the secrets of the whole university.

What i truly miss about college is meeting people. meeting people from different paths of life. College really gave me so much opportunities that only i can hold and remember. i miss the people that i get to greet while running through the mighty halls. the hours i spent working on my research, extra corricular, killing time with friends, worrying about nothing....

I would honestly say that my days in college are much better than my high school . though there is a cliche that highschool memories are the best, being able to go through both now, it is really in college that i would probably remember most.

considering that i had 13 years in black and white plaid skirt, my memories of st paul just seemed to be not "worth" remembering. dont kill me it's my opinion. of course i got my teachers who i eventually called moms. and also friends who, if i could count them with my fingers i would really would be able to count them, stuck by me through thick and thin. i remember terror sisters when i was back in grade 3 as well as terror teachers who'd let me stand up if i dont get to recite. did these train me well? i really dont know. though i will never forget those cheering practices, those endless "noisy girls list", intramurals where batches can kill each other, pasiglahan that only paulinians acutally knows what "deck tennis" is, dancing the honk-honk dance (i.e. el tongo neo) as well as the irish something dance with cosutume. geez.. aint we cheezy. hahaha

St paul days are memorable, hands down. But ateneo gave me life. they made me think. They made me realize what i want. indeed, as how we in the Ateneo Student Leadership Assembly would say, "bringing out the best in others". it is also in the ateneo that i was able to "choose" my friends. being able to know who i actually get along with and who i do not get along with. it is where i stood up and ignore people (well aparently it was my friends who actually pushed me to do so.)who gets int eh way of being myself. i remember one of those lazy afternoons after class where barbie and anya were riding in my mini car looking for a place to eat. we may have teared up a little that day for we all realized that we were all in the same boat-- that it was "our presence as friends to each other" that made the whole college life much better than high school. i guess it was also the power of control. The ability of all of us to control what we want, and if we actually know what we want, we will go and do what we want no matter what keep us from getting there. We also talked about accomplishements that afternoon. Indeed i accmomplished so much after the four years we were all together. i need not elaborate here but i guess frequent readers of my blog would know.

sigh.. college. how i wish i could go back and relive it. but then again we have to move on. i probably said this when i graduated highschool too. But the difference is that in highschool you knew you were headed to college. as for me now, i may have a direction in mind but getting there might be the hard part.

ULTIMATE GOAL: represent the philippines somewhere. FSO maybe, but any company who's willing to take me and send off to outter space is ok. hehehe. i have hopes still for the philippines. i still do.

long term goal: take up masters in development studies. be an EU events coordinator or researcher on what the EU can do for the philippines, rather than the philippines practicing their mendicant foreign policy yet again.

short term goal: do events on the side while looking for a permanent job.

"how can you score, if you dont have a goal?" - from a book my sister and i read in belgium





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