Period of transition

I'm honestly having a hard time. There was once an old lady who said "brides are always blooming because.. They are full of wide eyed dreams". That caught my attention as it held true to what I have right now. 

However no matter how big new dreams are and  how close to a fairy tale reality of a happy ever after... Once the dust of that magical proposal settles; reality check comes. And everything changes!

Right now, i find it hard to balance myself to meet my dreams. They say to ride a bike, to keep your balance you have to keep moving forward. But I never listen as i always fall flat on my face when I end up choosing a side and not my path. :( 

Maybe someday I will get real answers to this. But I pray, I pray whole heartedly that I can conquer and be solid to a decision I make for myself.