bothered and disturbed sleeps

last night was just but not good. I don't think i deserved to be "objectified" to that because i think i deserve some more respect that being call as such. My life has more meaning than yours coz i think at my age i have accomplished more than what you have. Though i still have a number of life dreams yet to be fulfilled, i think i have more moral and direction than you who have decided to take a path for all the obvious reasons.

Perhaps it is my defensive mechanism that's making me say all these, but still i feel i did not deserve what you said. Coz i know i did not do anything to hurt nor take anything away from you.

tonight, i will be sleepless due to unanswered questions. bothering questions that may or may not affect my future. my heart aches to know fully what it is as my mind tells me to be alarmed. I have felt this a number of times, and gave me a positive feel after knowing. I wish i know what it is so i can sleep soundly tonight.

But as for you, i just hope you made the right decision. Your life was a mess and don't make it messier. Seriously, you might just made the worst decision ever.